Christopher Coake

Good news, everyone!

2011-02-11T13:04:00.000-08:00

My long-in-the-works novel, title TBA, will be published by Grand Central in 2012. Watch this space for details, and thanks for your patience.

Three words from the novel-in-progress

2010-11-20T08:32:00.000-08:00

Daddy. Ghost. Her.

Memories

2009-10-08T08:15:00.000-07:00

If you knew Joellen, and have found your way here, please post your memories of her in the comments below. If you did not know Joellen, please read them, and learn a little more about her.

On the Passage of a Decade

2009-10-08T08:11:00.000-07:00

Though I am not a person generally given to noting anniversaries, I am writing now in commemoration of one. Ten years ago—on October 8th, 1999, at about the time of this posting—my first wife, Joellen Thomas, died after a five-year fight with bone cancer.

I am not a particularly sentimental person—though maybe it is more accurate to say that I try not to be publicly sentimental. When I write that I do not care much about anniversaries, what I mean is that I don’t feel as though I should assign celebration, or grief, or love, to one day more than any other. Am I happy to be married, only one day a year? No. And yes, I was, and am, devastated by Joellen’s death—but I want to believe I grieve her, and remember her, just as often on October 7th and October 9th as I do on the 8th of every year.

But ten years is different. I am a fiction writer, which means, in part, that what I do is see order in chaos; I look at the world, and, as a representative of a sentient, pattern-making species, I seek out particularly complex and meaningful patterns. A decade may mean nothing to a dog or a tree, but it means a lot to a person. And, it turns out, to me. Ten years feels substantial, noteworthy. For ten years I have been trying to move on, to survive. But now, all of a sudden, I feel like I’ve come too far, that time has moved faster than I wanted it to.

Maybe it’s because I’m pushing forty, and I time seems like a betrayer whenever and however I consider it. Maybe it’s because I’m finishing a book that has made me think a lot about grief, and about Joellen. Or maybe it’s just because a decade is a natural point of breath for us. I am deeply embroiled in plans and patterns that keep me busy and fulfilled. And ten years ago, this morning, a previous decade’s plans and patterns were destroyed.

Those plans had everything to do with being married for a long, long time to a wonderful, kind, brilliant, beautiful woman I’d met six years before, in 1993, at Miami University of Ohio. They were my only plan, really. A career? Writing? Teaching? Whatever. I had met Joellen Thomas, and, against all odds, Joellen Thomas had told me she loved me, and what else did I need to do?

That Joellen had gotten very sick, not long after I met her, was incidental to me and to my—our—plans. But she was sick, and at the last, just after our marriage, she got so sick I could no longer pretend that cancer didn’t matter. One afternoon, in the Arthur James Cancer Hospital in Columbus, Ohio, a counsellor entered Joellen’s room, and, instead of the usual drill—speaking with Joellen and ignoring me—turned to me and asked if I wanted to talk. That’s when I finally understood how much trouble she, and I, were in. And then a few days later, Joellen’s heroic oncologist told her, at her bedside, that he could do nothing more for her. And then Joellen came home from the hospital. And then nurses came to our home. And then one day they brought an oxygen tank. And then, one sunny morning in October, while her family and I all had our hands on her, Joellen took a breath, and did not take another.

Ten years is a long time. It is a longer time than I knew Joellen, by several years. It has been time enough for me to redo my plans. To write a new life for myself.

Ten years has been time enough for me to meet and fall in love with another beautiful, wonderful woman, Stephanie Lauer. To marry her. To write a book and move to Nevada—near the mountains I always wanted to see from my window—and to work at a terrific job at a terrific school. To depend on my old friends, whom I love very much, and to meet and love many excellent new friends. To become the sort of man who doesn’t feel the need--as I used to, when Joellen had just died and I was very lonely—to tell strangers about her. I have said the following so often that the words threaten to lose their meaning: The man I was, then, would never have believed that he could be so happy, now.

And yet I am happy. And that is not only because of my work. I am a lucky, lucky man. I am lucky in love, in my friends, in my career. I have to know this.

It’s more complex than that, of course. More than once, every day, I stop and remind myself that I am lucky not only in the wake of tragedy, but because of tragedy. That while I most certainly would have been happy, had Joellen lived, I am certainly happy, now, here, because she died.

I do not know how to make any sense of this. There may be no sense to make. After Joellen died I could either live, or die, and I have never wanted to die. Joellen would have wanted me to be happy. We spoke, now and then, when I would listen, of what I would do when she was gone. Joellen told me, before she died, to write. She gave me permission to love someone else. Remember me, she said. Neither of us were religious (we were atheists in the foxhole)—Joellen did not die, thinking she was going to rise to a heaven—but she wanted to be remembered on this earth, by those who would and could. By me.

And so I do. I remember her every day, and not only in my mind. I remember her also in my choices. In the way I try to live my life, in the way I try to love the people I love. I fail—every day I fail—but it may be that I am mostly happy because I can look back at these last ten years and think I have remembered Joellen, in part, by being the man whose potential I think Joellen saw in me. My only regret, now, is that I did not yet know, when she was alive, how to be the man I became when she was dead.

This is not true. I have one other regret: I do not speak of her enough.

Anniversaries exist because of the observer and the observed, I’ve talked about the observer enough.

But it is difficult to speak of the dead. It is difficult for me to speak of Joellen. When I mention her to my friends, now—those who knew her and those who did not—I always feel a hitch, a pause, between us. I don’t blame anyone for this. It’s simply how we are. We keep looking forward, we keep talking about happy things. When I say Joellen’s name, people might think I want to take the conversation to a different emotional level. Maybe in the pause, they are assessing me: How damaged am I? Is a revelation about to come? Does he need to cry? Does he need something?

Sometimes this is exactly what’s going on. But sometimes I simply need to talk about a time in my life that was important to me. Sometimes I am just remembering. And too often, I think, I let myself be quiet. To keep my remembering to myself.

At home, by necessity, I say little—I don’t ever want Stephanie to feel less loved, or as though our house is haunted. And in the classroom, I must say little—I want my students to think they can write freely about, say, cancer, without imagining me and My Sad Story waiting on the other end to tell them how they got it all wrong.

Let me be clear. I’m criticizing no one but myself. I understand why all of this is the way it is. But I am writing this because, here on the tenth anniversary of Joellen’s death, I find myself losing bits of her. My memories are, in places, eroded. I remember our big emotional marks, but I struggle, now, to remember quieter times. Domesticity. Little kindnesses. I remember the timbre of her laugh, the look on her face—but why was she laughing?

Part of it is age, and distance. But I do wonder whether some of this erosion is happening because I don’t say her name enough. Maybe it’s because I am happy, and the cost of happiness is not often enough addressed. Maybe in trying to be circumspect I am forgetting, too often, the full nature of her bravery, which almost always involved tact and consideration, but never, ever, involved silence.

Maybe it’s because I live now in a place she never lived. Maybe it’s because I spend the vast majority of my time talking and laughing with and teaching people who never knew her. To them she’s only a story.

Ten years have passed. Maybe it is time to tell her story again.

Joellen Thomas fought. I say that word, fought, but do you know what it means? It means that, in her early twenties, after a bad engagement to a bad man, when she thought she was past the worst moments of her life, Joellen was diagnosed with osteogenic sarcoma: bone cancer. The worst cancer, her doctor told her, in the worst possible place: laced through a tiny loop at the bottom of the right wing of her pelvic bone. If you want to live, she was told, you’re going to have to fight hard.

And she did. This is what it means to fight hard: Over the next six years, Joellen underwent torment the likes of which few humans can understand. A yearlong course of the most intensive chemotherapy the doctors thought she could stand. A surgery that cut out part of her pelvic bone and left her leg two inches shorter than the other. And then, when the cancer recurred: a second yearlong course of chemo. But that chemo was cake, compared to a procedure called a hemipelvectomy—the amputation of her right leg and hip. Joellen was told she would not walk again, in the wake of it. However, she located a new prosthetic that might allow her to do so, and, with its help, she did indeed teach herself, again, to walk, with the use of a cane. The cancer recurred and recurred. She underwent numerous surgeries to remove metastatic tumors in the soft tissue of her abdomen and in her lungs—including one procedure that cracked her ribs apart from the front, as though she was having surgery on her heart. At the end she went through a monthlong course of experimental radiation.

This is what it means to fight hard: While undergoing these treatments, Joellen completed a master’s degree in rhetoric and composition at Miami University of Ohio. Then she finished a master’s in women’s studies at Ohio State. Then, after she graduated, she took a job in downtown Columbus, providing resources to battered women’s shelters around the state.

She fought. She fought the disease. She fought insurance companies--in particular, Blue Cross/Blue Shield, who dropped her coverage two years before her death. (We were lucky she qualified for Medicaid; if Joellen were alive, you can be damn sure she’d be fighting for a public option.) She fought for women’s rights. She fought for her students. She fought for her sister and her mother and her father and her friends.

And, though I can still barely believe it to be true, she fought for me. For our wedding, for our marriage, our future.

But here’s the thing. She never thought of it as fighting. She never thought of herself as brave, and was offended that anyone else would. She thought of what she did as her duty, for her loved ones, for those who had less than she did. But she stayed alive as long as she could because she liked to be alive. To work and to play and to love. She would not want to be remembered as someone brave, but sick. She wanted to be remembered as Joellen.

But what can I tell you? I remember her laughter; she laughed a lot. She might have been laughing because I told a bad joke. Or a good one: one night I read aloud to her an entire long essay by David Foster Wallace, and we both laughed so hard it hurt. Her sense of humor was wicked, sarcastic, but sometimes she laughed because small things pleased her. She loved music: the Indigo Girls, Sarah McLachlan, Sting. (“Fragile.”) We bonded over music; our first date was a Tears for Fears concert in Cincinnati, and I have some old emails in which we quote Steely Dan lyrics back and forth to each other. Oddly, she loved Harvey Danger. Also Christmas songs. Her love for The X-Files bordered on obsession. She loved animals, most of all her cat Midnight, but kept Animal Planet on TV as background noise. She loved babies, and wanted one of her own. She loved books. She loved a glass of wine, and maybe two (before she got sick she told me of a night she’d gotten so drunk that she curled up in a parking lot and went to sleep, mistaking a concrete bumper for a pillow). She loved Diet Coke more than alcohol. She loved her friends deeply. (She loved my friends, too, for which I am grateful.) She loved to sit beside the front window of our apartment, which looked out on the branches of a tree; she loved the leaves in spring and summer. She insisted on wearing makeup, even though not a soul who knew her thought she should. She talked to her mother every single day. She was obsessed with the death of Princess Diana. She liked stuffed animals. She’d been wild, once; she told me that one time, in high school, she’d jumped between two moving cars on a country road. She knew how to curse, especially when she drove. Sometimes she cursed with me, sometimes she cursed at me; she was not shy about expressing her opinions, though her anger never lasted long. Her voice was just a little bit raspy, as though she smoked, but she didn’t.

She fought for all of that. To be herself. To keep on living, as herself.

She would not want her life to be a lesson. To be reduced. It would either anger her or embarrass her or both. And so I come to the end of this not knowing how to make a summary statement.

When I began, I had vague designs on urging you to action. To donate your money or time or both to a cause that Joellen would have fought for: women’s rights, health care reform, animal rights. The general and continuous and endless fight against the world’s fools. And by all means, if you have been moved by this, do those things. Write a check, call your representative. Be a force in the world.

But that’s not enough, is it?

And here, again, we come to grief. The observer must imagine the observed. Joellen would tell me how to end this, but since she is not here, the responsibility to do so, and the failure to do it right, is mine.

Or maybe it isn’t. Maybe this is the pattern, the meaning, I can find in the chaos and the loss: Joellen lived the sort of life that doesn’t allow for easy summation. She was herself, and because she was herself, she cannot be an essay, she cannot be a sentence, she cannot be a story or a lesson. However we remember her, she was more, and more, and more.

Until ten years ago, on this day, Joellen Thomas was alive.

What more could I possibly say?

Tap Tap

2009-10-07T08:57:00.000-07:00

Is this thing on?

Vagabonds

2008-02-19T07:53:00.000-08:00

Longtime friends know I'm an enormous fan of the on-hiatus band The Jayhawks. Hell, casual acquaintances know this.

Today marks the release of Jayhawks singer/songwriter/guitarist Gary Louris' first solo album: VAGABONDS. (Check out Gary's MySpace page for a sample.) Louris is an incredible songwriter, and after two listens to the new album, I can say it holds up to everything he's ever done. Pick it up--

Also, on the horizon: Louris and former Jawhawks singer/songwriter Mark Olson (I can't go into the history of that band, but there was a falling-out between these two, long ago) have not only reconciled, but have, apparently, recorded an album together. It's due out in a few months. If you remember the harmonies between these guys on songs like "Blue" (easily my favorite song Of All Time), you'll be as excited as I am to hear their new work.

In the meantime: VAGABONDS. Out now. Don't let Gary Louris remain the guy everyone refers to as "criminally unknown."

Famous Last Words

2008-02-19T07:47:00.000-08:00

My good friend Katie Pierce--whose official poetry-writin' name is Catherine--has just seen her first book hit the shelves: FAMOUS LAST WORDS is now available at fine bookstores everywhere, or from Saturnalia Books. I can't even begin to tell you how good Katie's work is--please check it out!

New York, Reno, Mississippi

2008-02-19T07:30:00.000-08:00

Hi, all--I've not checked in for a while, and apologies for that! It's been a busy semester here at school, though I got to sneak away to the AWP conference in New York early this month. Unfortunately I only had a day and a half in the city--nowhere near enough time to catch up with all my friends there, old and new--but I was able to have a reunion with several Ohio State profs, alums, and current students. I was also a member of a panel on the state of the short story, moderated by Andrew Scott; my copanelists were the inimitable Dan Chaon, the formidable Cathy Day--whose new book, COMEBACK SEASON, is just out, and terrific--and Cressida Leyshon, the very nice and very thoughtful deputy fiction editor for THE NEW YORKER. (Full disclosure: I'm someone who of course would someday like the be published in THE NEW YORKER, and who has in the past griped about its editorial decisions, but listening to Cressida talk about her role was...soothing, in a way. She's got a clear sense of her own vision, and also about the role her publication plays in defining contemporary literature. Good stuff.)

I'll be careful here, so as not to sling gossip in a public forum, but word has it a prominent editor, one whose decisions were questioned by one of us on the panel (not me!) was actually in the audience, and got up and left shortly after said comments were made. Aaand that's about it for controversy.

I'll be traveling a lot these next few months: in a week Steph and I depart for Mississippi, where our good friends Mike Kardos and Katie Pierce will host us for a reading at Mississippi State in Starkville. (See the post up above for news about Katie.) At the end of March we'll be in Indiana and Ohio, a trip centered on a reading at Indiana University East. And in April I'll travel to Cal State-Stanislaus for a reading as well. If there are strangers who read this blog in any of those places--I look forward to meeting you!

Sir Edmund Hillary, R.I.P.

2008-01-10T21:48:00.000-08:00

I knew it had to happen sometime. A guy like Hillary, though--I kinda believed it never would.

If you don't know anything about him, read an obit like this one. He was a giant.

Long Time No Post

2007-12-08T16:35:00.000-08:00

Hi, all--sorry to be silent for so long. It's been a busy six months, and I just haven't made the time to check in with the long posts I'd been planning. But I have heard the complaints, so here I am.

Why've I been busy? Well, work, as always. And in early summer I got to do some traveling in support of the GRANTA list--had a great time reading in Minneapolis, Iowa City, Chicago, and Toronto. The listmates with whom I read were, without exception, fabulous people to get to know: Akhil Sharma, Rattawut Lapcharoensap, Kevin Brockmeier, Yiyun Li, John Wray, and Karen Russell. All great people; all wrote great books.

I was also fortunate enough to spend some days driving cross-country with GRANTA's then-editor Matt Weiland and his wife Gina (Matt's since moved on to THE PARIS REVIEW). That was a blast. Luckily we all liked the same music, since I'm insufferable on that front. Minneapolis is Matt's town; I'll always be thankful he and Gina took me to the Electric Fetus, which as you might imagine is a record store full of goodies.

But that trip aside--I spent the summer working on a new novel. Not the one I've been complaining about to some of you for a couple of years now--THAT book and I needed some time apart. I turned instead to another idea that's been kicking around in my head, and have written well over 100,000 words since June 1. Not all of those are permanent words, mind you, but I really love this project. I won't predict an ETA, but it'll be done sooner rather than later.

Also: I finally got my butt to a gym. As of this week I'm down 33 lbs. from May, with many more to go. My GRANTA pic was what did it, in the end. Another 15-20 lbs. and I'll post a Before and After shot in this space.

And finally: My new story, "Pitch Black," is available in the poker-mystery anthology DEAD MAN'S HAND, an anthology edited by the inimitable Otto Penzler, and published by Harcourt. Look for it in bookstores everywhere. The story's a new direction for me--dark comedy, I'd call it. It also features not one, but two bad death metal bands.

That's all for now. I'll try to be more attentive--thanks for your posts!

In Defense of Long Acknowledgements

2007-04-09T07:37:00.000-07:00

I mentioned in my BBC post below that I had a chance to debate (briefly) Ian Jack on the length of my acknowledgements in WE'RE IN TROUBLE. And it's true: I have four pages of acknowledgements. This is unusual in the world of literary fiction, which I knew when I wrote the list. But apart from a couple of snarky comments in otherwise positive reviews of the book, the list itself didn't get much comment, upon the book's release.

Then, prior to the announcement of the GRANTA Best Young American Novelists list, Ian Jack wrote an introduction to an issue of GRANTA in which he spent two and a half of his own pages questioning the wisdom of my four pages. He kept me anonymous, since the context of the introduction was that Ian was reading contenders for the final BOYAN2 list. But I'd seen the intro already, and was torn between excitement (I'm under consideration!) and annoyance (someone else is making fun of MFA programs, yee-ha). Then, last month, part of Ian's introduction was reprinted in HARPER's. That Ian Jack, he gets around.

I want to stress that Ian and I have spoken about this, and Ian insists his questioning has all been done in the spirit of fun and banter--as was our radio appearance. And I do believe it's true. But all the same, I find myself in the position, now, of having to defend my acknowledgements.

Let me see if I can sum up Ian's objections:

1) Long acknowledgements devalue a literary work, calling into question the originality of the writing (especially if many of the people thanked are one's valued classmates in an MFA program).

2) Maybe long acknowledgements are in fact a sign of the author's ego--only a writer convinced of the magnificence of his prose would thank so very many people for making such a glorious thing possible.

3) He doesn't understand MFA programs and what they do.

I can't argue point number two--I have an ego, but I don't believe I have THAT much of an ego; then again, can one really judge one's own ego? I'll leave that for anonymous posters from Georgia to decide. But as for the rest--

I really don't want to discount Ian's points. He has a right to his opinions, certainly, and also he has a critic's right to make whatever he wishes of the material released between the covers of any book. Once I write something and release it into the world, I cease to have control over it. So be it; if I can accept that fact about my fiction, then I also have to accept it about ancillary material.

But I can say I had none of this in mind when I wrote my acknowledgements. I composed my book during a particularly dark time in my life; in 1999 I lost my first wife, Joellen Thomas (to whom the book is dedicated) to cancer, and I wrote all of WE'RE IN TROUBLE in the years thereafter. In order to do that I went back to school--I attended Ohio State's very fine MFA program from 2001-2004. Prior to Joellen's death it's fair to say my life was difficult, in particular my childhood. I don't say all this to beg for sympathy--I truly don't. Rather I want to offer it as context; I can look back over my past and see any number of times when I needed the help of others in order to keep moving forward, to maintain my ambitions, to put words on the page. I think it's fair to say I could not have gotten where I am now without the support and kindness of lots and lots of people.

I'm also bothered, as so many others are, by the general disdain in American society for people who pursue intellectual or artistic goals. Writers aren't valued here they way they are in, for instance, France. Much of my time as an adult, writing, has been spent justifying myself to people, or hearing dire stories about how so few "make it," and how it's, say, financially irresponsible to pursue the path I was pursuing.

So when I learned that my book was going to be published, I felt I owed a debt to those who encouraged me along the way. I also thought that, publishing being what it is, I might never have another opportunity to thank the people who helped me along--one book is no guarantee of another. I also thought I might poke at the notion that writers do what they do alone--I don't feel as though I'm the lonely, tortured, friendless novelist working under a single harsh light in his garret. And yes, I wanted to acknowledge the help I got at both graduate writing programs I've attended--Ohio State's, and also the M.A. program at Miami of Ohio, where I both learned a lot and met Joellen.

So, yeah, the acknowledgements got excessive. I really didn't have to thank the coffee shops where I did a lot of my writing. But after a while making that list of names got to be fun. Why NOT thank Anton at Cafe Apropos? He thought it was great I was working on my book in his shop, and chatted with me about it all the time. Why NOT thank the teachers in high school who could have dissuaded me from writing my dumb fantasy novels? Denise Beck, I salute you! Why not? A dream of mine, an unlikely one, had come true. Why not say thanks to the people who didn't shake their heads and call me crazy, while I was having it? At the end I called it what it was--the first line of the acknowledgements asks readers to forgive me an "indulgence." I figured (and not, I think, unreasonably) that someone not in the mood could simply not read the names.

So that's all I thought I was doing. In a later post I'll write about MFA programs, and the bad (and infuriating) rap they get.

In the meantime I'll let you know that I plan to acknowledge Ian Jack in my next book...

GRANTA Appearances

2007-04-09T07:26:00.000-07:00

I now have my appearance schedule in support of the GRANTA Best Young American Novelists 2 issue--due out in the U.S. on April 24. I'll be making three stops, as follows:

Friday, April 27 at 7 p.m.
Minneapolis
The Loft
with Yiyun Li and Matt Weiland

Monday, April 30 at 7 p.m.
Iowa City
Prairie Lights Bookstore
with Kevin Brockmeier, Yiyun Li and Matt Weiland

Tuesday, May 1 at 7:30 p.m.
Chicago
Barbara's Bookstore/Oak Park
with Rattawut Lapcharoensap, Karen Russell and Matt Weiland

I'm looking forward to these events, to say the least. At each stop we'll be reading, and Matt Weiland (who is GRANTA's U.S. editor, and a nice guy) will presumably be speaking about the issue and its goals.

Hope to see you at one of these appearances! For more info in general about the GRANTA list, click here.

BBC Interview

2007-03-29T22:17:00.000-07:00

Earlier this month I took part in a brief interview on the BBC radio show the Today Programme, along with GRANTA editor Ian Jack; we debated the length of my acknowledgements. (For those who don't know--I have four pages of them in my book. Maybe in an upcoming post I'll talk about this in more depth.) Had a great time, even though it meant staying up late here on Pacific time. Thanks to Ian for setting it up--very gracious of him, actually, to give me a small shot at a rebuttal.

The irony of it was, I got contacted after the interview by an old friend, Susan, who I'd lost touch with--turns out she'd moved to England. She found this page, said hello . . . and then I got to tell her she was in the acknowledgements I'd been discussing.

It Burns Us, Precious

2007-03-07T19:02:00.000-08:00

[Even newer] colors for the blog! Lori in Chicago says the old format hurt her eyes, but I think really it was her feelings.

This is, incidentally, why I do not work in design.

Complaints about the new colors? Leave a post...

Best Young American Novelists

2007-03-03T13:34:00.001-08:00

I finally get to reveal news I've been sitting on for a few months: I've been chosen for GRANTA's 2007 Best Young American Novelists list. I first heard in November, when Ian Jack called to let me know the news; I then spent a month and a half working on a piece for the forthcoming issue in support of the list, due out at the end of April. The story is called "That First Time," and is, I'd say, similar in tone to the ones in WE'RE IN TROUBLE.

I still don't know what to say about this. I'm honored, I'm humbled (especially given my fellow listmates; see below), and still more or less in disbelief. Ten years ago I used the last list to guide my reading tastes, and now to find myself on the other side of the page is . . .

Here, I'll tell you what it's like to be on GRANTA's Best Young American Novelists list: you spend a long time fussing around with your blog posts, knowing you're supposed to be terrific at self-expression, before finally shrugging and copping out with an ellipsis.

Normally at this point I'd start spewing thanks, but since Ian Jack took me to task for just that behavior in a recent GRANTA introduction, I'll have to sit tight and communicate it telepathically.

(Fingers pressed to temples, staring furiously at the horizon and beyond, toward London; Ian Jack stirs in his sleep and mutters, 'That grateful bastard,' before resuming his fitful slumber.)

To the rest of the presumably less-thanks-averse judges--A.M. Homes, Meghan O'Rourke, Edmund White, Paul Yamazaki, and Sigrid Rausing: I am deeply, deeply grateful.

So what's next? Some tour dates, possibly, depending on many factors. I'll post any appearances the moment I know them.

I do want to congratulate my listmates before I sign off. Here, as promised, is the lineup:

Daniel Alarcon
Judy Budnitz
Kevin Brockmeier
Anthony Doerr
Jonathan Safran Foer
Nell Freudenberger
Olga Grushin
Dara Horn
Gabe Hudson
Uzodinma Iweala
Nicole Krauss
Rattawut Lapcharoensap
Yiyun Li
Maile Meloy
ZZ Packer
Jess Row
Karen Russell
Akhil Sharma
Gary Shteyngart
John Wray

I wish I could say I've already voraciously consumed every book by every author on that list, but I haven't. Seems this one's going to guide me just as the last one did.

Lastly: A quick shout-out to Anthony Doerr--I found out the full list when everyone else did, but I'm proud to say I guessed Tony's place here pretty easily. He is a fine writer and a gentleman. He is the Artist Formerly Known as Snowflake. Go read him; go read them (us!) all.

Now I'd better go write something.

Colts Win! Colts Win!

2007-02-04T22:52:00.000-08:00

Not like you need me to tell you that. But I like that I can!

Good News from France

2006-12-07T23:45:00.000-08:00

I just got word that the French literary journal LIRE has named UN SENTIMENT D'ABANDON as one of the twenty best books of 2006!

Thanks, LIRE, and once again to all the great people at Albin Michel who made this possible in the first place. Merci beaucoup!

Two Dogs

2006-09-07T09:54:00.000-07:00

We've adopted a puppy, Kona! Kona's somewhere between one and two years old, and the prevailing opinion is that she's a combination of black lab and English pointer. She made eyes at us in the Reno S.P.C.A., and we were powerless. She joins our existing dog, Nada (who, I must point out, we did not name), a ten-year-old golden/chow. We were worried about relations between a puppy and a grumpy old dominant dog, but so far the two have become fast friends. Kona likes to swim, so be prepared for shots of the irresistable combination of puppy and Tahoe...

Welcome, German readers!

2006-09-07T09:37:00.000-07:00

The German translation of WE'RE IN TROUBLE has hit the shelves, with the title BIS AN DAS ENDE DER NACHT, out from Goldmann...

Rather Ripped

2006-09-07T09:24:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the long radio silence--I spent the last part of my summer buried in my novel (which is getting there--sloooowly). But I do want to give a separate post to one of the cooler things that's happened to nerdy ol' me--which was getting to see Sonic Youth on July 4th, and meeting Thurston Moore in the process.

Long story short--I'm writing a story for a Sonic Youth tribute anthology, THE EMPTY PAGE, being put together by editor Peter Wild, and when I mentioned to him that the Youth were coming to Reno, he got me (and my friend and birthday boy Mike Kardos, who flew out from Missouri) backstage.

Great show (in support of the terrific new album, Rather Ripped), and afterward Thurston was gracious and literate, for a guy being bothered simultaneously by a dorky English professor and a group of Reno high school students who'd gotten permission to shoot documentary footage of the band. We talked about Mary Gaitskill; the students asked him what kind of beer he liked. The rest of the band wisely kept out of sight.

So thanks to Peter, for making it happen, and thanks to the Youth, for all the great music--and specifically one wave of feedback so loud it made me sweat.

Nevada Skies

2006-06-24T20:46:00.000-07:00

Reason number 564 why I love this place...a thunderstorm at sunset in the desert. The picture still doesn't do it justice.

A Brief Word about Book Purchasing

2006-06-23T15:53:00.000-07:00

To amplify a point from my last post below...even though I link to Amazon on this page (because I need sales for my book any way I can get 'em) I should note that, in a perfect world, anyone wanting my book (or any other) would go to the nearest independent bookseller and either purchase or order the book there.

Many of you know my wife, Stephanie Lauer, works for Reno's last independent bookstore, Sundance Books. It's everything a bookstore should be--diverse, staffed with book lovers, friendly--and which so many chain stores are not. And I say this with regret--when I was in high school, Indianapolis's best bookshop was Borders, hands down. But Borders and Barnes and Noble and other big chains have, unsurprisingly, eroded in quality the bigger they've gotten. They've also adopted predatory business practice, using their size in order to receive new titles before independents, and earning discounts the little shops can't.

It's axiomatic in my world that true book people are truly good people. If you think you're the former, please don't reward the huge box stores for their size. Don't use Amazon just because it's a web-click away. Go to an independent and chat with people like Stephanie, who read voraciously, who want to put a good book in your hands themselves, for the love of it. Or if you're in New York City, go see Otto Penzler's Mysterious Bookshop (where I bet he'd be happy to sell you MURDER IN THE ROUGH)...

Don't know a good independent? Check Booksense for one in your neck of the woods.

New Novella, Available Now!

2006-06-23T15:38:00.000-07:00

Hello, all. At long last--I can announce new fiction on the shelves!

My novella "His Mission" is included in the Otto Penzler-edited anthology MURDER IN THE ROUGH, available now from Mysterious Press. That's right--a book of golf-themed mysteries!

Those of you who know me will rightly say--But you don't play golf! To which I will answer: No. No I don't.

But I wrote a pretty dark novella for Otto anyway, about golf, religion, unrequited love, and--this was a requirement--murder most foul. And I'm pretty proud of it. Just as I'm proud to be included alongside authors like Lawrence Block, who I've been a fan of for ages...

MURDER IN THE ROUGH! Available at fine independent bookstores now...

France recap

2006-06-10T09:21:00.000-07:00

Home again--where I've been in a jet-lagged coma for a couple of days. But I think my eyes are open enough this morning to write at least a little bit about my trip.

So here goes another gushy post. France. Was. Awesome.

For those who don't know me: I'm a bit of a homebody. It wasn't until a few years ago that I began to travel within the U.S., and prior to last week, the farthest I'd ever gotten from American soil was about ten yards out in the Atlantic. I've waved across a Great Lake at Canada, but that's about it for my worldliness.

So it was with more than a little irrational fear that I boarded the plane for Paris (fresh off watching my friends Mike and Katie married, which certainly helped--and congrats again to those two, who are inspiring). I speak absolutely no French, and prior to this trip I had great difficulty even pronouncing anything in that language.

My fears, of course, were unfounded. Thanks in no small part to all the good people at Albin Michel, and to my fellow writers on tour, but mostly thanks to the very kind and patient folks I met all over France, I had no difficulty at all. In nine days I was transformed from a homebody to a devoted Francophile. I want to learn the language, I want to visit again. And in fact Steph and I might do so next summer.

A bare bones summary: I met up with the other writers and my editor, Francis Geffard, in Toulouse, and from there we circled the country: we hit Montpellier, Lyon and Vienne, Lille, Paris, and then Saint-Malo. (I loved them all, but have a particular fondness for Vienne, the smallest city on the tour--it felt very home-y, and has a wonderful bookstore and readers who gave us our warmest reception of the week.) Louise Erdrich couldn't make the trip, unfortunately, but that meant a lot of very funny, testosterone-heavy bonding with Mssrs. Udall, Chaon, Reid, Treuer, and Doerr. I couldn't have asked for a better gang of fellow travellers, some of whom are old hands at the tour de France.

I didn't have as much time in Paris as the others, but Francis made sure I got to see the sights. I stood under the Eiffel Tower at midnight, and saw Notre Dame, etc. A magnificent city, Paris--but no one needs this blog to confirm that. Still, I was awed by the sheer weight of history over there. I live in a city where "old" means 1870. The bookshop in Vienne looks out onto the pillars of Roman ruins.

But the best part of the trip, hands-down, was meeting French readers, writers, and book people. David Treuer said it simply and best: The French are the best readers in the world. It's true. They read a lot, and they care a lot. I met a man named Christian, for instance, who drove two hours to Vienne to meet me, because he loved my book, and was moved by it. I was, and still am, deeply humbled by the chance to shake his hand.

A country that loves to eat and drink coffee and read--why wouldn't I fall in love?

That's all for now. A big thank-you to Francis and the good people at Albin Michel (and a shout-out to my translator, Michel Lederer, who's obviously doing something right), and of course to Dan, Tony, Elwood, Brady, and David--you guys rock.

Back from New York

2006-05-25T07:55:00.000-07:00

It's going to take a long time to process our trip to New York for the PEN awards, and I'll have more to report as said processing occurs. As I said at the awards ceremony--and meant--I still feel like a grad student sequestered in his room, writing for workshop. So how'd I turn into this joker in the suit? How'd I get to a place where I could shake Philip Roth's hand? I'm still not sure. Maybe it's better not to be.

The PEN site--linked to the right--has pictures and audio up from the awards.

Now, though, is the time to say thanks to all the great folks in NYC who made our visit so memorable, especially Thomas Beller (who is not only a really nice guy, but who is also taller than me--seriously, like 6'7"), Heidi Julavits, and Victoria Redel, the judges for the Bingham Award; Joan Bingham and family, who funded the award, and who held a magnificent dinner after the ceremony in the sort of apartment I thought only existed in the pages of Salinger novels; PEN director Ron Chernow and the wonderful staff of PEN, especially Nick Burd; my editor, Ann Patty, and agent, Marian Young, who both shepherded Steph and me around with considerable patience; the incomparable Otto Penzler, for lunch and praise; the terrific memoirist Amy Benson and her husband Douglas Repetto, who spent the day before the awards ably showing off their beautiful city; and my old friend and classmate Shari Goldhagen, for coffee. (Check out the fine books by both Amy and Shari: THE SPARKLING-EYED BOY and FAMILY AND OTHER ACCIDENTS; both their web sites are linked to the right.)

And a shout-out to my old friend Jennifer, who I ran into by accident in the Strand. In a metro area of seventeen million, I saw a pal from Ohio. What a city.

That's all for now. In twenty-four hours I'll be winging off again, this time to Columbia, Missouri, for the wedding of Mike Kardos and Katie Pierce, two of our best friends. And from Missouri I'm headed to France. If I have time I'll post from the road...

Upcoming trip to France

2006-05-19T15:03:00.000-07:00

On May 29th I'll be making my first-ever trip overseas, to take part in an author tour arranged by my French publisher, Albin Michel. I'll be joining several other American authors: Dan Chaon, Anthony Doerr, Brady Udall, David Treuer, Elwood Reid, and Louise Erdrich. Some folks have written me, curious about the schedule... and I'm sketchy on the fine details (for instance, I wasn't aware Louise Erdrich would be along until just recently, and I still don't know many stops she'll be present for). But here's what I know of my part of the itinerary:

On Tuesday May 30th, we'll be in Toulouse (Southwestern France).

On May 31st: Montpellier (Southeastern France).

On June 1st: Lyon (Central France).

On June 2nd: Lille (Northern France).

On June 3rd: Rennes and Saint-Malo (Western France), where we will stay three days, and join the Etonnants Voyageurs International Book Festival.

We will be back in Paris on the evening of June 5th, and I'll fly home on the 6th. At each stop there will be readings, as well as meetings with press and booksellers.

If I can come up with more definitive details, I'll post them--soon!

PEN/Robert Bingham Fellowship

2006-05-17T23:53:00.000-07:00

I just recently found out that I've been awarded the PEN/Robert Bingham Fellowship. This is shocking, overwhelming news. (Details and citation are linked over to the right.) I'll be flying to New York this weekend and accepting the award at the Lincoln Center on Monday, May 22. Since I'm likely going to meet any number of people I idolize--not least of whom is Philip Roth, winner of the PEN/Nabokov--I will write all kinds of commentary next week, upon return.

But, any PEN folks reading this--I'm as honored and flabbergasted as any former Hoosier farmkid can be. My deepest thanks.

Greetings (again) and news

2006-05-17T23:47:00.000-07:00

Greetings, friends and randomly curious readerfolk!

I'm going to try and make this blog my homepage for a while, since the last one, I think we can all agree, would have been awful even by 1995 standards. (Even this guy's is better.) I tried a blog at this site last year, and failed--but around here we take failure and use it to grow strong, like bull. So: welcome to my blog and homepage, version 2.0. I'll try to keep it lively.